Thursday, December 1, 2011

Day 1: Why Do You Write? What Do You Hope To Gain From It?

Here goes....

Sometimes I write because I choose to say what I wish I could, on paper as opposed out loud...somethings are not worth saying out loud, but need escape none the less.  Other times I write because I feel as though there is something I need to say, though not important enough.....ummm....no, that's not it.  Other times I write because I feel as though I have something worthy to claim or state and yet, it may not hold the same importance or validation for an audience, so I hide it.

Sometimes I write because I like believe it's something I'm good at...and other times I write just to see if I can tell the same story in a new light.

Sometimes I write, hoping that someone will think what comes from it is worth reading, discussing or acknowledging.  And in my most selfish moments, I write because I think I am right.

Mostly, I write in hopes that the words coming out of me might someday create a means for a story...with a beginning, a middle and an end.  I write with the dream of being published by a house who believes that what I have to say matters to someone, somewhere.

I write because it's therapy, release and hidden thoughts.  I write because it's like breathing.  I write because someone once told me I would never write...a high school teacher told me not to bother filling out college applications because my dreams of becoming a writer were unsubstantial.  I believed her, so I didn't apply for colleges until I was 20.

I hope that someday, I am able to grasp the thoughts in my head and present them in a way, so that they inspire someone...anyone.  I hope that I might train myself to write more consistently and honestly, regardless of who I offend...that is the hardest part of writing.  Seems most of what I believe is outside of the realm of "normal" or "acceptable."

I write because someday I would like to be able to say "Yes, I wrote that."  "Yes, I've accomplished something that ...."

timer goes off.