Sunday, December 11, 2011

Day 11: What's the first book you see on your bookcase..write about it

Our Looks, Our Lives:  Sex, Beauty, Power and the Need To Be Seen by Nancy Friday.

I picked up this book, originally, while in the CA Credential Program, as a way to better understand what I would be up against, in terms of adolescent girls.  What I didn't know was how much I would take from it, regarding my personal life, as a n adult.  This book is genius in its attempt to discuss and find some reason in the chaotic world of being a woman.

Mostly what I missed for years, however, was the absolute 
sureness of self, the bravery that I owned prior to adolescence, 
that self-image inside that made every door I opened and optimistic 
adventure; why would people note love me? (p247).

So much of my own sense of self seemed to vanish in the seventh grade.  I began to understand the concept of beauty- and I was not it.  I began to understand the concept of making an attempt to better one's self-image, and for that I just had no time, interest, or perhaps, I thought it not worth it to bother any way.

I really should read this book again- it's not about being a feminist, I learned this later in life I suppose as I watched the pretty girls, I realized, somehow, or conjured it in my brain, that smarts would have to carry my weight- and yet, that in itself, didn't always work either.  

I miss who I was as a kid.  I was gracious, thoughtful, kind and I believed in magic.  I still believe in some form of magic, but I also feel that there are times in which...

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